Now or never!

Loving you is the best thing that have happen to me!

Missing you is the worst thing in my life!

Looking at you from a far away place is already the best thing you haven given me!

look in to your eyes...really gives me the nervs...

But I like it! I really do!

Everything is going crazy between us!

But as long as our love is together.

I will wait!

Maybe you have noticed, but then...

I still am very scared that you will hurt me....

But then I know you will have your reason....

Iwill understand!

Hope that you can really confess  to me...

Because...

After next year, it will be a bye bye for me to Hin Hua, my classmates, teachers, freinds

and you...

Really wish that you could understand my feelings....

Forever & always.....

It's time....

meeting you is the best thing that has ever happen in my life...

but leaving you is the worst thing that will happen....

i can't stand holding on like this....

even if you have....

i can't stand of crying while im thinking of you....

it really hurts....

i heard someone was shouting that you love me.....

when i heard it.....

i just feel like crying....

i really don't understand...

why will you take love as a joke....

maybe i don't understand...

but i really can't help myself for believing those words...

i know it will never be true....

so i will let go....

i willl....

till the time comes....

i will not be in front of you anymore.....

i promise...

it has reach an end...

sorry my frens...but i really cant stand the hurt anymore....it reli kills me....i cant do it anymore....i need to be free....becuz of a guy....i hurt myself so much....he dont even know hu am i ....how am i goig to tell him what i reli feel......the one will come soon...but not now....becuz i'm hurt....and i'm hurt badly....

boriing holidays!!!!!

everybody is complaining about boring holidays.....
well....
u can find sumthing that u like to do with it...
like helping out with ur mum with the house chores....
or u can go for a walk with ur dog....(if u have 1)
maybe u could clean up ur room.....
or if u have homework....
then finished it....
don't wait till the last minute then u figure out what to do....
then it will be too late.....
try not to let go everything.....
every hour.....
every minute.....
every second.....
hehe....well.....thats my advice.....
u can always drop a commet to tell me what we can do....
well....
my holiday suckz too.....
not really....i got a lot of free time to finish all my stuff that is incomplete....
learn a new piano song....
try cooking with the new recipe book.....(fail in the end)
well....its kinda fun to have holiday....hehe^^

I can't hold on to it anymore.....

I wish that i could....but then again...
i know where is my place....
i have to go....
i really can't stand those pressure holding on me anymore....
i just wish some1 could save me....
i really want to let go everything....
y cant they just let me go....i'm not a study type...
please...understand my feelings....
i cant hold on to it any longer....
i'm gonna crash very soon....
what you wan me to do....
i cant do anything but just looking myself falling down to the big deep sea...
anybody...
please...
help me!!

The feelings just comes out naturally...

What's your feeling after the exam?
Happy?Sad?Nervous?Curious?Excited?
What bout my feelings...
What can i do...
the result came out today....
it was bad...
it was the worst of all...
i cannot believe i would actually get a 42.5% when i studied my Chinese so hard....
i studied until i was pissed off....
and yet...
not even a 50%
what is happening to me....
Who can tell me the answer....
i wish to know it...
Why?
if crying could let my feelings be more comfortable....
i wiish i could cry the whole day...
but not just that short 40 minutes...
all i want is just to pass my own ranking....
but in the end...
i lost to a guy that was lower marks than me....
how could i face this problem myself....
please...
tell me what to do....

PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate my hand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate my fingers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why cant they just play the key that should be played....
what happen to my hand.....
everytime i play the piano....
it hurts alot....
i cant turn my fingers correctly....
i cant turn my hand correctly....
what happen!!!!!!
i cant evern turn my wrist.....
what the heck happen to my both hands.....
i did nothing wrong.....
you noe piano is my life.....
i will not give up to play piano....
even know i hand is injured....
i wont care bout it....
i just cant bare to listen to ppl playing the songs that i wanted to play....
but i cant...
just becuz of my hand....
i will not let that happen....
NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!